Not really one to suffer from bouts of depression
or severe anxiety - only occasionally
Never attempted suicide
or hurting others - due to my own inner pain
Yet thoughts of suicide have passed through my mind
not that I would ever consider it though
Thought about how people might feel without me
and somehow I know I couldn’t leave them alone
Regret is the worst of all feelings
Regret because of incomplete homework - it sucks
Regret because of lack of sleep - it sucks
But regret for doing something stupid
Always there
Not being able to do the spring musical because of forged late notes
That is worst
It isn’t like my parents didn’t know, they knew
Yet somehow it’s still a crime
Now my first period absences and lates are piling up
Danger of losing credit
For one of the easiest classes ever
Debating whether or not I should forge again to save myself
Hating when people do not take my advice
I try to help
It kills me inside to see them suffer
Do they do anything? - No
Realizing that I am a cruel bitch
One who tries to help but gets frustrated when some are too weak
Apparently I’m intimidating
Okay
Life just sucks sometimes anyway
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Published on e-Stories.org on 01/08/2014.
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