No 2nd child, but.....

To me is as if I was pregnant inside

yes, really only for me.

Am full of new dreams

and longings even also!

My thick belly - of course and quite clearly! -

to see only for me.

In 40 days you will be 18 years old

you have left me long ago.

However, in me inside the other is stuck

whether boy or girl?

Now I do not want to know it at all

Since you fatherless child:
only my THOUGHT is!