What I really want
Is hidden in the mist
What would really make me happy?
Don’t know if this exists
Change can be so scary
Decisions are my weakness
What if I would regret them?
That’s why I feel so helpless
I was so unsure about giving you up
But for some time it was okay
Now I’m missing you so much
Longing for you every day
Are you my happy drug?
Holding onto the thought of you
In the hope you could make me happy
And sure I could make you happy, too
But I know that you don’t want it
Because now I “belong” to someone new
Although I don’t want to “belong” to anyone
That’s why I’m making you both blue
What is this life all about?
It’s not my fucking little job behind fences
And not about conforming to arbitrary rules
In fear of the consequences
I cannot take it any longer
I want to break free
Want to break the rules
But will it make me happy?
(22.11.17)
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Published on e-Stories.org on 11/23/2017.
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