Heike Helmert

A Homosexual Jerk


A Homosexual Jerk (praying for acceptance)
 

 
My Mother looked in my eyes and told me a few things that are going wrong in my life
 
She told me Im abnormal, mentallity ill, twisted and confused
 
To embrace me, to show me that she loves me, thats what she refused
 
In this moment I was chilled to the bone,
 
I know In not perfekt, but I live my life on my own
 
She hindes her profound aversion behind false pretences
 
I try to hinde my dissapointment
 
Its self defense
 
I ask her if its better to see me down
 
It doesnt matter to her shes interested in her own
 

 
IM SORRY IM NOT PERFECT
 
IM NOT WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
 
IM NOT YOUR SHOWPIECE ANYMORE
 
IM JUST A HOMOSEXUAL JERK
 
IM PRAYING FOR ACCEPTANCE
 

 
Refrain:
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
Its drivin me insane
 
Please divide the line
 
Its choking myself in shame
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
I PRAY FOR ACCEPTANCE
 
IN EVERY HOUR, IN EVERY MINUTE AND IN EVERY SECOND OF MY EMBARRASSING LIFE
 

 
The deep look into her eyes told me that Im abhorrend, disgusting, unpleasant, and lazy
 
Her eyes told me that shes sick with me, thats crazy
 
I beg to her for showing me that she loves me
 
I beg to her for suffering my way of life
 

 
A FUCKIN NORMAL HUMAN, BEING HETEROSEXUAL AND STRAIGHT
 
THATS WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
 
SORRY I HAVE TO LET YOU DOWN, THAT ALWAYS EXPECTED PERSON ISNT ME
 

 
Refrain
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
Its drivin me insane
 
Please divide the line
 
Its choking myself in shame
 
My pain is yours and yours is mine
 
I PRAY FOR ACCEPTANCE EVERY DAY
 
IN EVERY HOUR, IN EVERY MINUTE AND IN EVERY SECOND OF MY EMBARRASSING LIFE
 

 
Mom I love you, but you dont say I love you too
 
Mon I need you, but you dont say I need you too
 
Mom Im satisfied with you, but you dont say Im satisfied with you too
 

 
And when I say Goodnight to you, you just say YES and not Goodnight too
 

 
IM A HOMOSEXUAL JERK, PRAYING FOR ACCEPTANCE
 
OPEN YOUR EYES AND REALIZE
 
I cant be perfect Im sorryso sorry
 
I love you
 
THATS WHAT I ALWAYS REGRET
 

 

 

 

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Published on e-Stories.org on 03/25/2007.

 

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